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October 20th, 2004
12:34 pm - Life.... not so fun right now!
I need a break from my life here are some reasons why I am not having fun:
1) Dance team is consuming my life and I never get a break, every day I leave practice dead tired and not wanting to study.... plus I feel like the worst dancer on this earth!
2) Because practice makes me so tired I barely have time to go to the gym and I love the gym... plus I paid for a membership at Iowa City Fitness!
3) Im too tired for homework
4) My classes suck... come on Into to islam.... HORRIBLE
5) I cant have a job because I dont have time in my schedule with practice AND school... therefore leading to NO money!
6) Boys are ass holes but I still want one and I never meet anyone new!
I NEED a break from this I want to go home and I want this semester to be OVER! Idont know what to do but this really sucks.......... wish I was having a turn around like Alyssa! Oh well
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August 29th, 2004
03:37 pm - Back to school..... Back to school
I know I know its been about 5 years since I wrote in here but trust me I have been a busy girl. First I came back and had 4 days of complete dance HELL before we left for our freakin boot camp in Milwaukee. Milwaukee was ok I guess but its dance camp and dance camp always sucks! It was fun being with all the girls though. I was soooo worn down at the end of the week thatI got sick and I had to go to the doctor over our 3 days break from dancing. I was still sick when we went back for two a day practices which was even more hell. Now as all of you know I absolutely despise running, as much as I love to work out I just HATE to run. Anyways, our new coach makes us run EVERYDAY.... AHHHHH! Oh well I guess I will get into shape.... which needs to be done if I am going to be in a half top in front of thousnds upon thousands of football fans.... oh in a WEEK!
HAWKEYE FOOTBALL NIS HERE! WOOOOO I am so excited! The first game is the "throwback game" and it celebrating 75 years of Kinnick stadium. SO everyone is dressing like the 30s/40s style for the games.... so we are supposed to look like cheer/dancers from the also..... lets just say were wearing SWEATERS and skirts to our knees..... ummmm we dont look hot... AT ALL.. HAHA! Its gonna suck ass and we are all going to pass out from heat exhaustion. boo.
On other news.... the boy. I was doing really well about getting over the boy and we didnt talk for about a month. Then a little over a week ago he started calling again, every day. Sometimes we talk for a really long time and he says how much he misses me. Sometimes he just calls to say hi. I dont know what to do, I am still in love with him and I miss him a lot, but he has to a lot of changing before I can put my heart back on the line to be crushed yet again. I hate boys I really do...... I think they all really suck. I mean really suck. Oh well I am taking relaxation class this semester and I am going to try to not let this stress me out. oh yeah and I went for a haircut... just a trim and the lady was a moron and cut off a lot of my hair, I hate it , I want to cry but theres nothing I can do so I will just wait for it to grow back. Dont worry though its still past my shoulders just way short for me.... booo stupid hair stylists they NEVER get it right, I hate them all, from now on I only cut my own hair!!!!!!
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July 26th, 2004
08:45 pm - TEDS 51!
Wow I cant believe that Ted is already 51! It seems like just yesterday that he turned 50.... haha! SO brett baker and I decided that we will keep celebrating teds birthday until hes 100. How fun would it be to come back every summer just to celebrate Teds birthday. We will all be like 69 when he turns 100! HAHAHAHAHA I had a good time at the farm especially at the never ending flippy cup game.. wow we played about 800 rounds...... our goal was first team to 11 wins and win by two but we never made it.... oh well
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July 23rd, 2004
09:22 am
My summer is so close to being over it is scary. What a boring summer it has been! All I did was work. I feel like I saw all my good friends zero times! I cant wait to go back to school so I can stop moping around my house and actually do something with my life! I am scared because next year I actually have some hard classes, so I will have to try extra hard.
I hate boys. Thats all I have to say about that. Someday I hope I meet a nice boy that makes me happy all the time and not just a little bit of the time. I am moving back to school a week from today and I have a feeling that most people wont even bother to say goodbye. Oh well I am sure I will see them over some break some time next year.
Dear Me, Please get over the boy you so called love and move on to better things, you deserve so much more then this ass hole. Someday he will realize what he is missing and you will have moved on. You can do it I know you can.
ME
Current Mood:  blah
Current Music: New Ashley Simpson CD
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July 20th, 2004
03:10 pm - How Far??
So this boy that I speak of regularly in my jounal told me to listen to the song "How Far" by Martina McBride cause it reminded him of us, if anyone can tell me what this means let me know:
There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back
There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
Yeah I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
How far
Ooohhhh
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July 15th, 2004
07:46 pm - seeeeeeeeeeee ya
So this weekend I have to leave and go to Iowa city for another hell weekend.... boooo. I love dancing and all but sometimes the whole weekend can get a little out of hand. Kirb and I are going to go check out out our apartment for next year... the guy that lives there called me, I thought he sounded like an old man and then kirby thought he sounded hot.... haha I guess we will find out on saturday what he really is. I bet he is a hot old man.... ok ew.
Other then that news tonight better be fun because supposively "someones" parents are out of town and "someone" is having people over....... YES SOMETHING ACTUALLY GOING ON IN URBANDALE I CANT BELIEVE IT.......... Well I will hopefully see everyone when I get back next week if they dont kill me in Iowa City.
Current Mood: Excited- wont get my hopes up!
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July 14th, 2004
04:54 pm - EVERYBODY.........
All I have to say is playing in the hot tub with James, Kirb, Lauren, and Gass.... IS FUN! EVERYBODY COME SEE HOW FUN IT IS... haha kirb!!! I love achorman but I havent seen it yet!
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July 11th, 2004
05:25 pm
Soooo I am starting to really hate the cops around these parts! They have busted two parties I have been at, not to mention one of them was at my house.... booo them. I didnt get in trouble though because I wasnt drinking either of the times. HOW LUCKY AM I??? This summer is continuing to suck , all I do is freakin work all the time and I want to have some fun. Oh yeah and the weather is all retardo.... no sun and never very hot..... I AM FADING TO AN UGLY PALE COLOR THAT SHOULD ONLY RESULT FROM THE MONTH ON JANUARY NOT JULY! AHHHHH
I need to write in here more often because I have too much to talk about. I really hate boys right now! It sucks that you can hate and love someone soooo much at the same time. I think we all know who I am talking about..... all I want to do is talk to him but he is tnot having any of that. For instance last night I went to Nicole Richer's house where EVERYONE was and when I got there I saw Dustin Cooper, who I havent seen in forever!!!! I was just mingling around and of course you know who was there.... so finally I decide to go say hey and right when I walk up to him he goes "dont" and I was like uhhh ok what the HELLLLLL did I do to you. So we yelled for a minute or two and then as I always do when I am mad I started to walk home.... dont worry just to my dad's who lives a couple blocks away from Nicole.
Anyways Courtney Biller was driving Jakes car home and they passed me on the road so they picked me up. I made it home safe and I dont even know how I got in my bed. Oh well I dont feel like writing in here anymore...... im out
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June 21st, 2004
09:43 pm
This summer is just CRAZY! First of all this weekend was Alyssa's bday.... happy birthday girly! It was a pretty fun night even though I only got to be there half the time since I had to work as usual. But anyways we ended up going out to Baker's farm and camped... well I guess only Claire and I actually camped there. I dont even remember the other girls all leaving. I spent the night in the back of a jeep and ended up cleaning up someone elses puke in the middle of the night.... sick!
But anyways, back to this crazy summer. All I do is work work work.... during the day monday-thursday I am nannying with three kids and thurs-sunday I am waiting tables at stellas. I am making money but I want time to just hang out and lay around!
Oh yeah I am looking for a new car.... well not new, used, but new for me. My piece of shit is going for sale RIGHT NOW it will be in the DesMoines Register this weekend! So if anyone wants a 95 cavalier for $3500/offer.... CALL ME!!!!
THATS ALL FOR NOW
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